To loose a best friend....

That's what I'm preparing myself to do.... Many people would judge me... because at the end of the day, I'm talking about my dog, Laika. I got confirmation Friday that my best friend Laika has cancer - lymphoma. It's very progressed and the vet says she has about 2 months to live. While many wouldn't understand my pain, really, I don't care! I know it hurts to know I will be loosing her... that one that always waits for me with a happy attitude ready to do just about anything I feel like. That one who always made me feel happy and loved, I still need her. I can't believe that she will be out of my life in just months... I'm not ready to say good bye. Although I've learned so much because of her, I know I still need to learn more. Why do I have to go through this now... my life has just had turn after turn, and they are not good. As I've said before, I give thanks to God that Adrian is healthy and all, but why do I have to keep on going through more hurtles in life in such a short time frame? I look at Laika and seeing that she still wants to go with me on those long walks even though she is slower and breathing heavier just makes me appreciate her even more. I've come to realize that it wasn't her who needed me but me who needed her. How she's been in my life for 5 years and I've counted on her to be my companion, my confident.. my best friend. Every night since Friday I have hugged her one last time at night, I have kissed one more time, I have enjoyed her presence just a bit longer.