School concert

Yesterday Adrian had a school concert... It was his 5 minutes of fame... But he was so adorable! He seemed so proud and sang louder than the rest.... I saw him more beautiful than ever! I loved him more than ever... Why? I don't know exactly why, but seeing him up there made me so proud of the little man I've raised and adore so much. When I picked him up, he asked: "So, did I make you proud mama?", I told him that he's been making me proud since the day he was born, then he added: "I will never let you down".... Can you believe that? How can a 6 year old know about letting downs... He has such a big heart... Then he thanked me for going, he said "it's sad when parents don't come... " Apparently one of his little friend's parents didn't show up. Anyway, seeing him up there yesterday just reminded me of how old he is now and how much I adore him and don't want to let go... It's hard.

Finally finished decorating...

The tree that is. We bought our Xmas tree on Tuesday of last week, left it alone so it could fully expand and decorated it on Friday... It looks so nice; I think it is our nicest tree yet! By the time we started decorating it though, it has a couple of branches from the bottom missing, yes, I believe our bulldog had a stab at it and failed after realizing that it wasn't too fun to play around with something that pokes you! Okay, and also, I have done some Xmas shopping too, I have our grab bag gifts, and the kids gifts, my mom and dad's and my brothers... I need Adrian - I was going to get him that R2D2 robot toy, but they're sold out!!!!!! I can't believe it.. Really I wanted it more than he did, which in the end is a good thing, that way if I can't find it anywhere he won't be SO disappointed. Can't help but remember when I was little and Xmas was the best magical thing there was... I remember being amazed at how Santa knew me so well and thinking that being a good girl did pay off at the end! I still have to buy a gift for Fernando too.... He want shoes... I better go shopping on my own!

Some bad news...

Well, not terribly bad, but bad enough for me! On Friday, as I was helping my boss clean the his office, I ran into some paperwork that seemed rather interesting... It had some writing about the company that I work for (Harris Bank) laying people off.... So my boss told me that my position is in danger. Although he didn't want to say anything yet, it seems that Harris Bank is going through downsizing... Letting 250 plus employees go. He says that it's not for sure that my position will be eliminated, but that it's a probable possibility! Although I didn't want to freak out in front of him, we joked around for a bit and then I went home... All weekend I've had this feeling in my stomach and it just doesn't feel good. I've been working for the bank for close to 6 years now and I like my job... Also, Fernando has been out of a job for a while and my job is the only source of income and I just bought my home! I do feel a bit in panic, but want to see it rather with better sense. I mean, I'm sure that with my experience and knowledge I can find another decent job, but the "what if's" aren't helping. I did tell Fernando that he HAS to get a job, no excuses, I'm so overwhelmed... Have been so overwhelmed for a while now but now that I know that my job is on the line, I feel scared! I will not know for a while as to what exactly is going to happen... I hope for the best!